I'm sorry I always sound so depressed, but the blog's really meant for ranting. I mean, if I'm feeling all good and happy I wouldn't be online blogging would I?

Maybe god (God? heavenly Father? the Almighty?) meant for me to die a lonely old woman. with cats.
well no, I'm not really a fan of cats. dogs? not dogs either.
maybe a guinea pig. I've always wanted a guinea pig. named bingbing. or two, then i'll name the other one maomao.
when they have a baby, I'll name it xiaocao.
see? I knew I was destined to raise guinea pigs.

quotes Miss Sim "If you find yourself angst-ing and suicidal. don't worry, you're nothing special."
i hope to god i'm not the only one then.
okay not suicidal.
there is NO pretty way to die. besides, i couldn't bear to be all that brutal to myself.
smoking is one thing, but jumping off a building is a totally different ball game.

by the way, Miss Sim is SO hawt. she may not be your typical skinny girl, but her kick ass attitude more than makes up for it.
wrist slashing on the other hand is waaayyy too embarrassing. and ugly.
can you imagine if you DONT die, they'll have to stitch you up and everyone will know that you're this insane psycho freak who tried to kill yourself. sheesh. then everyone would know you hate yourself, that's not very nice is it.

i CANNOT believe i'm talking about methods of suicide.
hahaha. TGIF.
screw what teachers say, weekends are for us to get our lives back together, not for us to mug.




yes. i am holding a lemon tea bottle. and carrying my sister's white backpack.
bite me.


oh, look what you've done
you've made a fool of everyone

When he's gone, he's gone. Elsewhere.
Didn't take much notice the other day when I saw the news but when Ya Qi commented on how sad she was, I didn't know to what extent. Till I read it for myself.
I still have my loved ones here with me.

L, I love you. I couldn't imagine.

Parents-teacher meeting tml. Gone already :{ Both my parents are going. I'll just hope for the best :}
Fb final ytd was really exciting thrilling had Gladys Weijia and I really really nervous. So happy for the girls team who won champs! :) And it was a greattt fight by the guys too! :) :) :) Even though its really sad and all .. :(
Gladys lion lala girl and I hv alot of dirty secrets :p Lol, its all so retarded everyone will think we are crazy! K, but we hv alot of fun crapping :)
AND................
Biondi - All I Need Is You! says (10:03 PM):
if u cant become slim
Biondi - All I Need Is You! says (10:03 PM):
make your friends fat
Lol, no wonder... Hahaha, he's so bitchy.

I made these cookies for a local cookie contest, and while they may not have made it into the top three, they did win me the Best Decorated Cookie prize. This is a great Christmas cookie that I put a little twist on to make it seem more like a summertime treat. Find the recipe and more at my blog.

HomeSchool sucks so far. This e-learning thing just makes me slack all day long and only starting to realise all the things i have to do at the last moment. And i can't just stay at home cause its such a bore. Maybe i'm starting to appreciate school. But both's still a chore.
Heck.

And recently i've been impressed by alot of things around me. =D
that doesn't include losing my precious wallet. haii...



Everyday i patiently wait, feeling like a fool but i do anyway.
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real, Cause i know that i wasn't waiting in vain.
Maybe i'm wrong and its all in my head.

Sometimes i wonder if i've been doing the right things, going to the right places, making the right choices.
Its so hard to get by, get over with.

I had actually planned on making the traditional tandoori chicken (but baking it rather than grilling it). However, the grocery store failed me and I decided instead to alter the recipe I had. Read more about that at my food blog if you're interested. There's also for how I did the rice and potatoes there.

Anyway, the chicken isn't overwhelmingly red, but even moreso in person it's definately tinted red. And though it wasn't the tandoori I wanted, it was yummy nonetheless, with the perfect amount of spiceyness!

( more pictures + recipe )

It's a tradition for my mum and I to, during wild rose season, pick wild rose petals (all rose petals are edible, but we prefer the wild ones), candy them, and decorate a cake. The result is lovely, because as the cake sits in the fridge the flavour of the roses seeps into it and gets stronger every day.



( One more photo under the cut, and instructions... )

I made cookies for the first time in just about forever the other day and wanted to share pictures and the recipe!

( Double Chip Chocolate Peanut Butter Cookies )